Come to HIM and find rest.
With all of your heart, seek HIM.
My hands bounce back and forth off the keyboard like a bouncy ball flies up and down through the air. I sit and imagine the endless possibilities to where my creativity can take me. At the center of every word, every sentence, every paragraph lies the identity of a fourteen year old girl. I search through the clutter of my imagination where I try to seek this God, but I cannot see him through all of this clutter. I keep searching to discover where I can find myself, what I am passionate about, where my future is headed. I cannot find...there is too much clutter within this head of mine.
So I clear my thoughts. I ask that my thoughts become His. I find rest within His presence. I sit and listen to the glorious sounds of His kingdom. Never before have I felt so at rest. I enjoy the few moments of His peace until I am consumed by the activities of this world, racing to another event. The clutter returns like it never left. Where do I go now? What do I do?
I continue to seek. I look even deeper, searching even harder than before. I find myself back at the computer with my hands on this keyboard and a blank page staring back at me. There are an endless number of my thoughts to incorporate on this paper. Right here, right now...I seek. I seek Him. With all my heart invested in this love, I find Him. He whispers to my soul like the crickets sing into the night. Here I am, unwritten. I have no idea where my future is hidden, I do not have a clue as to what defines me, and I am blinded by this love because it is all I see. All of a sudden, my hands start flooding with words, sentences, paragraphs. Within His presence, He is giving me the words that need to be said. I type it all out on this paper and stare back at the masterpiece that He has created.
He is using me whether I see it or not. I cannot tell who is being impacted, but I know that I am being used by Him. I can feel it deep within my heart. I might get distracted from seeing His creation, but there will never be a day where He is not on my mind. Never will there come an hour where I want nothing more than to find myself in His embrace. I call out to Him...not matter how many times I think He is not listening...He is still there. I'm just not looking hard enough. So I will search harder...I will search with all my heart...and I will find.