Friday, July 20, 2012

"My Love Never Ends"






I know I need you.
I need to love you, Lord.
I love to see you,
but it's been so long.

I long to feel you.
I feel this need for you.
I need to hear you.
Is that so wrong?

Now you pull me near you.
When we're close, I fear you.
Still I'm afraid to tell you,
all that I've done.
Are you done forgiving?
Or can you look past my pretending?
I'm so tired of defending what I've become.
What have I become?

I hear you say,
"My love is over,
its underneath,
its inside, its in between.
The times you doubt me,
when you can't feel,
the times you question if its real,
the times you're broken,
the times you mend,
the times you hate me,
the times you bend.

My love is over,
its underneath
its inside, its in between.
The times your healing,
the times your heart breaks,
the times when it feels like
you've fallen from grace,
the times you're hurting,
the times that you heal,
the times you go hungry
and attempt to steal,
it times of confusion,
chaos, and pain,
I'm there in your sorrow
under the weight of your shame.
I'm there for your heartache,
I'm there in the storm.
My love, I will keep you
by my power
alone.
I don't care where you've fallen
or where you have been.
I'll never forsake you,
my love never ends.
My love never ends."

-Times-
-by Tenth Avenue North-


Monday, July 16, 2012

Childhood Memories



        I clearly remember the days of finger painting, tying shoes, fairy tales, cursive handwriting, ballerinas, swing sets, cooties, and baking cookies with Mommy.  I can tell a detailed story behind every one of these childhood memories that I won't ever be able to let go.  There will always be a part of me that is dedicated to my childhood.  I can remember how I always wanted to go the park and play on the castle swing sets where I really did feel like I was made to do something so special.  Standing on those castles welcomed me to exploring beyond what people told me I was capable of doing.  I flew by many different stages when I was little, and I love to reminisce on the days where life was carefree and simple; however, that carefree life seemed to fade away quickly just like a sunset fades into the horizon.  Even as I remember many of the things that I adored in my childhood, the one thing that I remember most is wanting to grow up.  I wanted to be a big girl and be able to do big girl things; however, I had no idea what came with so much responsibility.  My young naive mind was unprepared for the whirlwinds of this crazy world.  The one thing I regret about my childhood is that somehow, I always wished I were older.  Honestly, I wish I could freeze time and just soak up the moments before they are all fading away again.  I can't wait to grow up, but I want to experience what God has in store for me, first.  So...before you wish you had the privileges of an older version of "you," don't forget to be thankful for the moments you have right here, right now before they all just fade away yet again.










Sunday, July 8, 2012

Unfailing Grace







        This is a crazy world, turned inside out, upside down, and twisted all around.  It can sometimes be so far from God that I just wish I could zap myself into heaven, but I have a purpose that God wants me to fulfill, first, and I am willing to go where He calls.

        We tend to see everybody else through the law, when we expect God to see us through grace.  This must be why this world is so backwards.  How can we be seen through grace, accepting all of God's mercies, when we look left and right and pull out our judgement cards upon other people?  We can't deny it because we are all guilty.

        For example, say you are shopping in the grocery store and a man walks down the aisle with a long, untamed beard, rugged and torn up clothes, wild hair down to his shoulders, a piercing in his nose, tattoos covering his arms, and metal chains hung around his neck.  What would you instantly think??  I am ashamed to say, but I would be pretty intimidated and scared.  I'm pretty sure I would think that He didn't know God, but for all I truly know, he could be one of the most Godliest people I know.  That's just the thing:  you never know.  There is no way that we have the right to judge someone when we know nothing about them, yet we do it anyway...even when we know it's wrong.

        So, this just might be why this world is turned around.  We see others and look at them in ways we shouldn't.  How can we allow ourselves to look at people and judge them by their actions, their past, their mistakes...when we are sinners just the same?  We want God to look at us with His grace, which He abundantly gives, but we don't look to see others through grace, too.  Why is this?  Why can't we look at someone and love them for who they are, including their mistakes?  We all make mistakes, and we would want people to treat us with grace, so why can't we treat others like this?  The great news is:  God doesn't look at us in the same way we may look at others.  He freely hands His grace to us, and we are grateful for that.

I challenge you this:  go through this week and try to avoid judgement.  Think about grace and mercy and what God gave for you anytime you start to judge someone.  God has never looked at you through the law because He is willing to give you unfailing mercies and grace.  Wow.  Aren't we blessed?

\Wordless Wednesday
Ruby Tuesday 2

Friday, July 6, 2012

Fireworks - Dedication-TreyErwin











Yesterday, Trey Erwin went to be with God.  He fought a long battle through pancreatic cancer while changing so many lives and inspiring so many people.  In a video that was posted before Trey's passing, he said, "I'm not inspiring anyone, I'm being used by God, and I just want all the glory to go to him and none, none, none to me."  We don't understand why God does the things He does...we don't have the human ability to understand, but we know that God performs His own miracles even when we can't see them.  Trey told the doctors that he would be happy whether he'd be here or in heaven.  Trey didn't want people to see the cancer in him as much as he wanted them to see his faith.  Trey has left the greatest legacy for so many people to be inspired by.  God used Trey in amazing ways, and God can use you just like He used Trey!   Trey's 16th birthday would have been on July 31st.  Right now, I ask that you stop and say a prayer for Trey's family.  His younger brother, Collin, had a close relationship with Trey, as they shared many laughs together.  There is no longer a need to pray for Trey, as he is dancing with God in heaven!  Pray for Trey's family, pray for his supporters, pray pray pray.  If you would like to make a donation to Trey's family, follow this link:   http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/treyerwin/journal